Retired for the Summer
I recently quit my job. A place that I loved working for a long time, a place that gave me many things, a place I considered my second home. I find it hard trying to explain to people why I left. The best thing I have come up with is, “I just got lost.” Have you ever been at a spot in your life and thought… “How did I get here!? When did I get so wrapped up in the world that I lost sight of who I am?” I got lost in the late nights, and the lunch-less days, lost in the hardness that has consumed me. Lost in my work, lost in seeking validation and approval from others. Lost in the game. Lost in people pleasing, and eggshell walking. Lost in my pride.
The truth is, we all fall short. And sometimes it’s okay to admit you want a change, to be soft, to break. My encouragement to you is to be honest with yourself. To confront your fears head on and to love yourself in the process. For me, a brand new adventure awaits & being lost has never felt so rewarding.
I wrote the caption above in an Instagram post earlier this year. I often go back and re-read it. I can honestly say that the last year of my life has been THE most challenging thus far. Being in your mid-twenties is delightfully horrible… not to mention terrifying. There are so many uncertainties. But then there is so much excitement, freedom and opportunity too!
For the past 5 months I have been on a hiatus from the working world. I liked to say “I’m in transition”, or “I’m temporarily retired”. The concept of not working was such a foreign thing to me. What ever would I do with all of that time!? You wake-up and you live. And that’s exactly what I did. I spent long and late mornings in bed, countless afternoons on the beach, evenings doing yoga, late nights with loud live music, window watching on international flights, weekends away, weeks in other states, and many moments with some amazing people. It’s been a wonderful treat and privilege to have that time. Time for me, time for mistakes, time to feel.
I figured now is a good time to re-build and re-brand. I just purchased a bunch of new camera equipment and can’t wait to put together some magic and get back to work. So until then… welcome to my new site! I’m excited to keep sharing my experiences with you.